wuv...twu wuv.....

[kittenspeaks]

Ok, I need to talk a little bit about Valentine's Day..
"But Kitten, despite being romantic at heart you hate the commercialism of it all...and aren't you alone?"

Well, yes...and no. It is complicated in a way and dreadfully simple in others. But this isn't about me yet. It is about others...and their effect on me.
See, I have had some shitty relationship. Really shitty. But love hurts...right? It would be easy for me to look at my track record of romantic debacles and become a godless nun. Fortunately I am surrounded by some really amazing couples who constantly take my breath away. They have love for each other that is so strong that it stretched vines out to those around them so they can see love flourish in their lives as well. I want to take a moment to call some of them out and thank them for being in my life. I want to thank them for sharing their love and their lives with me.
lepapillonvert and la_muse_verte
fierce_rabbit and galbinus_caeli
karmalingoist3 and rudebone001
victoria_lane and wolverine
pitbullpotpie and mr.pitbullpotpie
cherrybomb70 and mr.cherrybomb70
ashesngolddust and packgrog

There are more wonderful and loving couples in my life. This list isn't to discount any of them. These are just the ones that have had the most impact on me.

And beyond that I want to thank baldsug, [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and rubberdux. All of you have shown me more love and support over the years. You have made me keep my head up through so many horrible times. And most of all, you reminded me that my love is important. That is is something to value. And that even if it has ended badly with some that it is something that was never wasted. I am coming more and more to accept that it is ok if "love" ends. Maybe it is meant to do so. And I have known some really great loves. I can look at them all now and be happy for what we did have instead of thinking only of the bad things or regretting what we no longer have. And yes- I did say ALL of them. (Distance gives perspective after all.) And I thank all of them (Dexie, John, Kirsten, Paul, Ty, Scott, Meg, Berny, and Hampton) for being a part of my life then and a part of my heart still.

The greeting card holiday has really gotten me thinking about all of it. All of you...all of them. And letting myself be happy.
I have loved.
I have been loved.
And that is a good good thing.
Sure, sometimes I get lonely. I wish for someone next to me in life. Someone who calls me theirs and wants to be called mine. But I also know that I am so very lucky. I am surrounded by love. The love of others, the love of friends.
And my love has inspired long lasting beauty. I have inspired poems and stories and music and plays and photographs and paintings....I am a muse. My love has made such an impact on people that they needed to create things that will live long beyond our love and our lives.
That is pretty incredible to think about.

Anyway- So here is my Valentine's Day wish for all of you...
Find the love.
The love of your art..your friends...your families...your work...your lives...
This can be an ugly ugly world. It is easy to lose sight of the little things. And it is the little things that matter. So, you might not have a "sweetheart" on this holiday marker.
But you are loved.
And you do love others.
Celebrate it.

Comments

[girlvinyl.livejournal.com]

This is a beautiful post.

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

*smile*
Thanks.
Glad you made it home safe.

[aggression.livejournal.com]

<3
If only I could give you a big squishy hug.
I never felt like I gave you enough of them.

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

Rain check then?
*hugs*

[drjeep.livejournal.com]

Okay, I own you one of these... :)

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You have been hugged, you have been burried, and you have been found cuddly :)

Happy Valentines Day :)

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

*grin*
YAY!!! Hug attack!!
I'm glad that you and your Valentine have found your way to each other.

[sanityescapesme.livejournal.com]

Seriously, dude...are you *sure* you're not gay?

:)

-R

[drjeep.livejournal.com]

Quite sure... :)

[la-muse-verte.livejournal.com]

What calls the spring to awaken in winter?
What coax’s the flowers bloom in February
while the world lies in snow?
What fills a house with warmth when there is no hearth?
How can the struggling dreamer show so much love
when the winter winds blow?
What is that light that we see in your eyes?
What is that warmth in your words?
What's this flame in your heart?
It is the warmth of the summer sun
it is the fire of love.

Kitten,
All who know you have been touched by the warmth of your love. Your love was the support for us when so few understood. You have touched our lives and our hearts.

We love you.
Happy Valentines Day.

[lepapillonvert.livejournal.com]

♥

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

I love you both so much.
I am so glad that I could be there for you.
I am so glad you have found each other. Your love and happiness is so contagious.
*hugs and nuzzles*

[jackbabalon23.livejournal.com]

I wish I could show you what it is you inspire in me, how the words drip from my fingers when I think of you. For what it's worth Happy Valentines Day gorgeous, thanks for the one hundred and one little things you've done for me without ever having known you've done them.

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

I often read your words and wish...hope...that they are for or because of me.
One day you'll write me in fictions truth more brilliantly than any lover I have ever had. Because you know me in ways that are deeper than my flesh. You see my soul in my words.
I love you for that...and so many many other things.
*hugs*
*nuzzles*

[karis-straif.livejournal.com]

You truly are a "sweetheart"
There a true core of love in that soul of yours.
Thank you for being a friend.

Mucho hugimosos K

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

I love you so much.
I stumbled across you way too late in my time in Atlanta. I still want to sit with you and have a long talk about lost magics and perhaps a cleansing.
Will I be seeing you at transforums?
Send Jean my love. I hope the two of you had a beautiful day of romance.

[fierce-rabbit.livejournal.com]

Hey, your "other half" is out there too. galbinus_caeli and I didn't find each other until I was 40.

Have faith.

*hugs*

[kittenspeaks.livejournal.com]

I think I am finally reaching a point where I feel whole on my own.
And if someone comes along who can build on that then that will be amazing.
And if I don't then that's ok too. I have brilliance to make.:-)

I love you Mom!!!

[fierce-rabbit.livejournal.com]

*motherly hugs*

[packgrog.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetheart! We both greatly appreciate your kindness, and wish you were around more. It's especially unfortunate that you weren't up here for our friend's bachelor party (where half of the wives, including the guy's fiancee, were in attendance as well), as there was rampant smooching all over the place. Sure, everyone was taken, but everyone had a wonderful time in each other's company. You would have fit in perfectly (and probably gotten to make out with half of the people there, heheh!).

Hope you can make it up here soon. If you don't have plans for the 4th of July, you're welcome to join us and our friends at our yearly backyard party, with much drunkenness, volleyball, and sometimes boobs if there's no kids around. It's always a blast, and a ton of good-natured fun! Again, I think you'd fit in beautifully with our friends, as does my wife.

So happy valentine's day from the both of us. I hope your day was even half as nice as ours. And if not, you'll just have to come hang out with us. :)

Take care, lady! *hugs*

[cherrybomb70.livejournal.com]

LOVE YOU!